I feel like ass.
we've had a migraine all fuckin day. yesterday too. I'm getting very sick of them.
My buspar is kicking in, so im real sleepy. its like takin a Z Bar.

*yawns*
I cant wait to see Rogue this wekend.
We're all so stoked!

Blargh. Cant friggin think to type now, so i gotta go lie down.
maybe get something to eat....

So we went to visitation at 9 am this morning. Columbia County has fucked up visitation days and hours.
Monday or Wednesday From 9-11 1-4 or 6-9
But you dont get that whole slot. You can only vist for 30 minutes. Its better then Putnam county though. We had the window glass and the phone at Columbia County. We didnt even have that at Putnam. But it was fukin freezing in there...

He says he has a picture for us and a necklace (its amazing what you can pick up from the inside of a jail house) I'm flattered. The picture he has for us, is a sketch of a cross with vines and flowers..
again, im flattered, I just dont like crosses.. *sigh*

He upset a couple of us today, and now their felings are hurt and they dont want to deal with anything associating with him.

So he is on the docket tomorrow at 8:30 am. I would totally be there, but there isnt a 100% chance that he'll get released. If he does, then I'll go pick him up, but his court time is 8:30 am. not only is that real early, but I just took a trip there today.
I'm fukin exhausted.
im going to bed.

*sigh*

*bangs forehead on keyboard*

Okay- So I've found him. Jeebus.
He is in Columbia County. The County website is under construction and they told me i couldnt find inmate information on it anyways. (so wtf?)

So im going to call the clerk and find out when he is on the docet so I can let his mom know.
I guess im also going to call the jail back tomorrow and find out about visitation.
I will so drive to Lake City on Saturday to see him again. (but i wont take the dog this time)

I feel bad. His mom called me earlier, and i didnt know because Nitro and Stanleigh were in the front room playing guitar hero :)

She had him on the other line trying to find out about his court date, so I'll call her tomorrow and let her know what ive found out.

It would be nice if he could call me. I really would like him to. He said he would..and he hasnt yet. Granted it only Tuesday, I feel like its Thursday already. *sheesh*

I didnt mean to offend Rogueybuns in my first post. all that wasnt relly directed at you. I was trying to talk to other people who dont know about me being split and that just dont get it at all.....*sigh*

But he does. he understands and accepts us. well as much as he can because it is hard to deal with.

*sigh* Life is confusing.

AND to top all of this crazy shitt off.- Someone from my elementary school days (that i had a crush on) contacted "us" via facebook and is real determined to see "us" again...Thinks there is a chance for sparks to fly between us.

*sigh*

R and I argued tonight
He's bein an ass
*grumbles*

-yea and god said to Abraham, "you will kill your son Issac" and Abraham said "I cant hear you, You'll have to speak into the microphone" and God said "Oh, I'm sorry. Is this better? Check, Check, Check. Jerry pull the high end out, I'm still getting some hiss back here...."-



"I never knew bisquit as a dog, but I did know her as a table. She was sturdy, all four legs the same length..."
~Stewie Griffin



p.s./ I have some Brain damage. Yeah!? o.O

my head is splitting me- the other night R and I went to the bar, Ironicly, with the owner of my store. R left with a buddy to go smoke, but I stayed and hung around for another drink or so. They didnt get back till the bar pretty much closed.- He got out of my scion, gave me a big bear hug, and the next thing I know, I'm on the ground, on my back, and there is a huge welt on the back of my head.
We went home, and apparently we had a fight on which a trooper swung by to make sure it wasnt a domestic dispute, got some ice and we "went to bed" sorta. we actually stayed up smoking for a while...My head is still killin me, so the mother thinks we were concust.
Have a nasty scratch/road rash/road burn on my lower back too which hurts like a mother at work. :(

my head hurts so I'm just gonna friggin crash....

My heart feels like its been riped out of my chest.
and i feel like a stoopid fool.

I let something very precious to me, slip thru my fingers and it hurts so much i dont ever want to leave my rabbit hole. I dont want to face the real world, i dont want to exist in it...

I cant exist in it...not with out my soul mate.....

unfortunately sleep had to happen, so things are on a pause until tomorrow...and then i find out if i stay in my wonderland or if i can face the real world once more.....

But i know its gone...its fgone forever...and i let it slip away. i was mute when i should have spoken, and loud when i should have been silent.

i havent cut since our pact- until now... I broke it. because i bleed for you....and only you. Why cant you see that? Why cant you see that I cant survive with out you??

*curls up and cries*

HEloo.

I'm still here.

I'm busy.

Oh well..

I'll post more later!

I miss you Octave!

*kiss*

Re did some shitt in my journal.
I likes it better nows!

Story Time.

Sin said She'd actually start on that, so when she does, I'll update againa dn let you all know that she started the story, then if ya'll want you can join in.. otherwise I guess it'll just be the two of us...3 if Kristall plays